dearest stella + jane,
i'm a little behind on updating the blog....well, more like a lot behind. how many months has it been since i last posted...2? 3? life has been so hectic i feel like its been only a few days since i last updated. besides my mini-meltdown a lot has been going on. especially in the way of you girls.
stella my dear, what can't you do these days? i feel like you're 2 going on 10. you're getting taller (finally filling out those big size 8 shoes you've had since last summer), strong as an ox (literally) and so smart and sassy. you are a dancing fool. every evening incorporates some kind of dance related activity, which i thoroughly enjoy. it anyone had told me parenting involved this much dancing i probably would have signed up sooner (not that i really waited all that long). your favorite songs these days are:
1. ratata-wild cat...or "crazy cat" as you call it. on. repeat. every. day. its a good song though so thank goodness.
2. beyonce - end of time. thanks to uncle ben and his vimeo enlightenment. i want to learn every dance move. and you and me are well on our way.
Beyoncé - "End Of Time" from Alexander Hammer :: EDITOR on Vimeo.
3. blondefire - where the kids are. because we always have to keep it a little bit hipster around here.
favorite movies:
1. angelina ballerina. or how you say it, "angelina ballegrina" it always sounds like a fine wine to me..."would you like the pinot grigio or the angelina ballegrina?" the movies are really weird, i have to be honest. i loved the book growing up but the movie is just weird animations and overly positive. always a lesson to be learned. but there are worse things you could be watching so i'm fine with it. and i'm also understand dance a bit better while watching it, which will come in handy during So You Think You Can Dance season.
2. toy story...although, you arent allowed to watch it so much anymore. the scene with Sid, the mean next door kid, and his scary looking toys has left a major impression on you, and maybe not in a good way. you tell everyone about the "baby with the spikey hair" and the eye patch over and over. its honestly pretty cute, but i have a feeling it might be the reason for some nightmares you've been having lately. i now understand the parents on "Away We Go" when they won't let their kids finish the end of Sound of Music. you forget how violent and sad kid movies can be....until you're watching them while sitting next to a wee-one. i want to fast forward like every 3 minutes. and can they please take the phrase "shut up" out of kid movies/TV Shows. i'd rather you say the F word than say that. its just such a rude phrase. and a terrible arguing style. unless, i suppose, you're rene zellweger in jerry mcguire.
3. the lion king. again with the violence, but at least its animals fighting and not swords or guns. and the circle of life makes me tear up literally every time i hear it. literally. i'm tearing up right now thinking about mufasa raising that tiny baby up to the heavens.
what else what else. you're loving St Lukes School. no issues during drop off now. its been sad since Leila has left, but you've made some new friends.
you're big time into dressing yourself. i've got to clean out your closet so there are less terrible options for you to choose from since i cannot have any say in the day's outfit. you are obsessed with this hot pink polka dotted fleece hoodie that is size 18 months....and you fit into a 3-4T now. we're talking tiiiiny on you. the sleeves come to your elbows and your buddha belly is busting the seams. but you insist on wearing it anytime its cold. actually, i'll be right back, i'm going to throw it away right now while i'm thinking of it.
you are so so sweet. and so loving. and so stubborn. and so snuggly. and so chatty. and...and, well and so Two. this is really a such a fun stage (minus the tantrums. ok, even with the tantrums.)
Lady Jane. my sweet, sweet, sensitive, smiley Lady Jane. you are made of sugar i swear. nothing but smiles from you, all the time. you recently had RSV, a respiratory virus, but no one would have known it if you hadnt been so wheezy. you smiled, ate and slept like normal through the whole thing. such a good girl.
you're standing on your own now. and can walk along the couch without any problems. i suspect you'll be fully mobile in the next week or two and its making me tear up just thinking about it. its funny, with stella-bells, i was so ready for life to go back to normal. to feel like a single adult again, i didnt have a lot of these maternal feelings. not that i didnt love you stella, dont get me wrong, you are the light of my life, but i was ok with you getting older, i was ready for you to be more independent. when you walked (at 9 months) i was ecstatic! when you turned One, i was over the moon. but never was i hesitant about it, or wished it wasnt happening, the way i am with Jane. it makes sense because its probably because of the finality about my last baby doing all the baby things. or because after having going through this with my first child, i now understand how precious and fleeting these moments are. dammit, now i'm crying. or it could be because i'm a complete train wreck lately (cut to the 3 instances i have mentioned my ease of crying just in this post...more on this situation later). either way, you are precious to me and growing so fast.
your first tooth broke through about 2 weeks ago (the bottom right) and the bottom left one is busting through any day now. you eat EVERYTHING. you love meat, and mum mums and bananas and cheerios. you are so active and so in love with stella. and i have a feeling you girls are going to be very similar in personalities. sweet as you are, miss jane, you are a persistent and demanding little thing. and lord almighty, if you want something you are going to strongarm someone until you get it. not so unlike my stella.
you are becoming more and more vocal everyday. "mama" and "dada" are on the regular. "dat" and "cah cah' are also in there. although i'm not sure they have definitions. "goodness" is my most common word with you and every morning, after your morning feeding, you just stare up at me and go "Gah gah" and i look back down at you and say "goodness! goodness!" we do this back and forth for a few minutes. i just know you're trying to say goodness right back to me. it. is. precious.
you like yelling into cups and hearing how your voice sounds in it. you seem to have an appreciation for music and rhythm. it wouldnt surprise me if you grow up to do something musical. you dance in your own way during our daily dance parties. either bobbing your head or bouncing your bottom to the beat. you do love banging you hands on the piano.
i just put you girlies down to sleep for the night. we ate a big dinner of mahi mahi burgers covered in spike, wheat pasta, spinach littles and broccoli. the 3 of us jumped in the shower after dinner since we all are a bit runny nosed (and were covered in broccoli) and then played in your room with the lights dimmed and the lion king playing on the ipad. dad has gone to meet up with some friends and i'm sitting here at the computer with a glass of Cox Pinot Noir to finish on my own. there is a calmness in the house at the moment that is so rare, and i love it.
i love you girls. i love you kyle. i love this little family of ours.
xo
PS - there are so many many many photos in my phone and dropbox that i need to put somewhere. i'm so hoping i have the energy to put them here, for memory's sake. it is my plan. fingers crossed.
xo